Having a grump!!

Ive been walking lately up and down hills and in this 40 degree heat that the lovely sun has to offer its been full on! Even at 7,30am this morning it was really hot. My light and easy plan really hasn't worked. I'm not wrapped in the lunches so far but I'm sure the dinners will be better which I will try tonight.

My husband is joining Jenny Craig again but he had real success last time and lost over 4okg so it works for him in the short term its just trying to keep it off that is the problem which is the same reason gt the band.

At the moment I'm a little annoyed with the whole "band thing" I need a fill but yet i was over filled last time so I'm not sure what the plan is next! I'm sick of getting fills because i was under the impression I would only really need a few and I'm up to fill number 6 or 7 and each time is $170.00. I makes me wonder what the doctor is doing.

The full feeling lasts for a few days then slowly over the month i end up feeling hungry again. My next fill is next week and I will be discussing this with my doctor.

The thing i is have recommended this doctor to others so i hope he does not let me down. He is a nice man and looked after me on the day but I think sometimes they forget that they go home to their families and we are now dealing with the band from a day to day basis and need that little extra support not all the time but sometimes and expect them to be there.


Anyway I will keep you posted as to how things pan out! I'm still 99. something!! and I'm really over it I just wish it will go to 98 very very soon!!! and then keep going down!

Beena

WEIGHt LOSS

Hmm for the comment below (ive been banded for 6months) so im way past the "first step" I just thought I would re-cap my very first blog on here!!

I have decided to do a few weeks of light and easy just to boost the weight loss.I know that the band is meanst to stop all diets for ever!!!! cos it is a lifestyle change, but A few calerie control meals should get the ball rolling again (just until my next fill) and once its starts it should keep going. My body has a way of stopping when I am on a roll as I have been for 6months (with a total loss of over 32.8kg ) and that was this mornings figures!! I cant complain.

My 30th is approaching and I would love to be at goal but i don't think its going to happen. So Im hoping to get off another 10kg by then which will bring me down to 89ish!! Which would be nice! Im eating a lot more then i want at the moment for those of you that have not been banded a day for me would be

MORNING GYM
Cereal (wheatbix 2 and lowfat milk
Lunch 4 cruskits with salad cheese and tuna
dinner a childsize plate of anything ive cooked (tonight was a roast pork with veg) the pork wasnt the easiest to chew so i didnt have a lot of it (probably for the best)
NIGHT WALK

Because of my sweet tooth I might later on get something small like a freddo just to keep my mind off it. LOL... hey my choice!!!

So far this kind of plan has helped me get the weight off so between now and the next fill It will be interesting to see where I get.

Beena

My very first blog way back in June 2008 !!! Wow how far I have come

About me
Hello all, I'm a 29 year old mother of two who has recently made a huge step to change my life. On the 7th of August 2008 Im going to get LAPBAND SURGERY.

Now I'm sure there are some people out there that will find this a completely drastic move and I can tell you i once too was in the same frame of mind. When I was in my 20's a and 105kg(231lbs) I was told by a doctor that I should go get this done and I remember running out of the room crying and very insulted.

I have somewhat been living in denial about my weight but at the same time its something I have struggled with for ever, even my mum would say that I was always in bigger clothes then all the other kids even in kinder garden.

My husband seems to think the world of me no matter what but my heart knows that Ive managed to let myself go even more into weight gain hell, I'm now 153cm and 132kg(291lbs) with a BMI of 56.....

There are no excuses here just plain old fashioned habits that I have not corrected over time. Its funny I don't really see myself as really unfit or huge but when i put it down on paper like this its shocking....

I have done every diet I can think of and have managed to loose 20kg(44lbs) here and there only to gain 30kg back each time. I spend the first half of the year dieting and the second half gaining it all back.....

I have decided to blog my progress for others who may want some input on this process, and for genuine readers who have no judgement on me or my decision. I applause those of you in the world who have had successful weight loss with out surgery but I'm at the end of my rope with this. The final decision to do this came when I found a book I had from 1999 from a main stream weight loss centre it charted my weight and my weight loss. It woke me up and just made me realise how long i have been fighting myself and my food habits without any form of real success.

I really don't know at this stage whether the lap band is going to be a positive or a negative change in my life but I'm willing to give it a try for me, my husband and my kids so they can see the person that I can really be once i gain confidence and health.

JAN 2009
Wow i look at this and hope that I have been able to reach out to those of you who are feeling the same way preband!! I'm 32 kg lighter and Ive gone from a size 26plus!!! to a 16 to 18! (still on the journey) but Never in a million years did I think that I would be able to get this far. I got to the point where I had excepted my life and my fate to be extra large for ever. It was who Iam and that was that!!! Im still big but not feeling out of place like I use to in the world, not worried I'm going to break a restaurant chair or that a little kid is going to ask why that lady is so fat. I'm not worried that in the train when there is one seat left the old lady would rather stand then sit next to me ( the fatty on the train) all this makes life worth living. I'm still 132.5kg in my mind sometimes and I order like a fat girl even with the band
(I guess old habits never die) but the band is the little angel on my shoulder that stops me from going overboard. That makes the final decision for me.... And that is exactly what a person like me needed I can only speak for myself. Everyones journeys are different and there has been times I have wished I never got this way so I didnt need the band, but facing reality has been the hardest and I guess we all live and learn.


Beena

Weight loss moving SLOWLY!!!

Yes the Christmas indulgence has finally stopped LOL!!! I have yet to go back to the gym... Aiming for Monday! Today I have found that without any fills I'm full fairly quick so its really great. Its up and down and I have been told that this can be the case with the band Some days are less restricted then others.

I still think I need just a Tadd more to be at the right range for me. I'm still under 100kg YAY!! but as to be expected without the gym weight loss has been slow, which is fine! I'm back on track now and this week has been a little better. I was going to go on some healthy choices for a few weeks just to get things moving along (not a diet)!!! just a few calorie controlled meals. Its happened to me in the past with my weight... It stops for months then re kicks in and I start again (usually with or without exercise).

The most thing I love about the band is i never feel like I'm on a diet ( Ive always been to stubborn for that. I can pretty much eat everything as long as I chew and it usually helps me to make the better choices. I would not choose say!!! a burger cos it takes for ever to eat and I would of usually had the whole half side of the pizza but 1 slice is enough.

Gosh to think what I use to eat compared to now and no wonder I reached the weight I did!! I could never really figure it out... but portion is everything and the saying "eating in moderatin is sooooooooooo bloddy true. It baffles me to think that you only need small helpings to suvive the rest is really an indugence a bonus in life our times really take for granted.( like I said I can pretty much eat everything just little bits of it) some are not as lucky.

I cant cheat and I don't feel guilty with the band (well I could cheat I guess) but what I mean is I'm not on a strict planned diet. I'm eating everything just not much.

So far I would have to say I wold not recommend it to a person that knows they can reach goal all on their own, and like all the books say I can see why it is the LAST resort!! for dieting ( like my husband who is thinking of doing it) I know he can do it on his own he has in the past!! Keeping it off is another challenge for him but my band should make his eating habits to control easier cos i wasn't a great help in the past the way I ate! He hates needles and has a low pain threshold (for the food getting stuck times)! If he wants to do it for sure I said "go for it, but make sure first".its up to him but I know him well enough to give him both perspectives.

What has happened to me recently.... HMMMMMM!!! well I did go to a store and grabbed the bigger size and the lady said "no you will need a smaller one... That was really nice and made me realise just how far I have came. I guess when you are with yourself all day you don't really realise how much different you look to others.

I bought s size 14 which was a nice feeling (one off of course) but i may of already mentioned that!! (was shocked it fitted)LOL!!!

What else.... ummmmm There is a rumor i got a tummy tuck which i find hilarious other then that I feel good. Ive had to buy new bras It seems that my boobs have shrunk!!! There is a lot here to spare so I'm not upset about that LOL!!! and i have noticed some skin on my arms well more loose flab and on my breasts which may become an issue if I get to goal which i will get fixed.. Other then that 2009 has started off slow, OH!!! I did go to the movies and fitted in the seat with space on either side that was great..

Anyway
For those of you that have just had the op hang in there the pain will soon go and the journey will soon start..

Best Wishes

Cheers
Beena

The new year

Not alot going on so far on the weight loss front. My band seems to need a refill so I'm not sure to expect because last time he filled it up 2 much so i don't wanna go there again.Yesterday when cleaning after breakfast I did a little vomit in my mouth (great news) I know and I am sure you all wanted to hear about that LOL!! but it was a "lap band" issue. i don't know why i ave never had that before and it was very strange. Anyway I haven't been going to the gym or really doing alot. Ive been eating bad over the Christmas break which for me is now over today. I now need to get focused and get my butt into gear so that I can get off this weight.

Beena